When I sit and contemplate—sometimes during something as ordinary as a mani/pedicure—life’s miracles have a way of coming sharply into focus, so I try to write them down. Here is one such writing on a tiny notebook I kept in my handbag.
It was a bright, crisp autumn day in September. School had just started for my children, and my daily routine had settled into its familiar rhythm. Each morning, I drove 25 miles down the mountain to drop them off, then made the 25-mile trek back up to the quiet sanctuary of our home. On that day, the woodstove wasn’t needed; the seasonably warm air filled the house with a gentle, natural comfort.
Afternoons brought the reverse journey: back down the mountain to pick up the kids. My family, ever curious, often speculated about what I did during those quiet hours in between. What they didn’t realize was that those hours had become sacred—a time for spiritual study, reflection, and personal growth.
What started as a simple 30-minute-a-day spiritual reading practice had grown into something much deeper. I had my instructions and thought I understood what I was doing. Yet, as with all true spiritual journeys, my awakening was gradual, an unfolding that deepened over time with patience and devotion.
One particular day stands out in my memory. I sat quietly in my usual spot, surrounded by books that had become faithful companions on my path. My well-worn collection included the wisdom of Deepak Chopra, Thich Nhat Hanh, Eckhart Tolle, and Neale Donald Walsch, as well as sacred texts like the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, the Bhagavad Gita, the Holy Bible, and Alice Bailey’s writings. Their pages were alive with insights, each offering a unique lens through which to view the spiritual journey. Together, they were stepping stones across the river of self-discovery.
But on this day, I felt drawn to the esoteric teachings of Rudolf Steiner--an Austrian philosopher and esotericist best known for founding Anthroposophy and Waldorf Education.
Steiner’s work demands a level of focus and introspection that feels like peeling back the layers of existence itself. As I read, I felt my awareness shifting, pulling me inward and deeper. Then, it happened.
In the stillness of my meditation, I was taken inwardly. I found myself in a stark yet luminous room, the kind of space that seems to exist outside of time. The room was cold, yet it glowed softly with natural light pouring in through tall windows. At the far end, an antique wooden teacher’s desk stood as a commanding presence. Behind it sat a man in a grey wool suit, his eyes warm and inviting, his presence magnetic.
It was Rudolf Steiner himself—a face I recognized from a portrait in one of his many books that filled my library.
He smiled at me, a knowing smile that felt both welcoming and profound. The moment was vivid, tangible, as though I had crossed an unseen threshold into a realm beyond the physical. My breath caught as I took it all in, but before I could say or do anything, the scene began to shift. Slowly, the door to the room started closing behind me. Just before it shut completely, I heard his voice: “I wasn’t ready for you yet."
The experience left me stunned, the line between physical and spiritual worlds blurred in a way I had never encountered before. Over time, I came to understand what had happened. This glimpse into what some call the Fifth Kingdom, or Spiritual Kingdom, showed me a dimension that exists beyond our physical reality yet is profoundly connected to it.
Reflecting on this experience later, I realized how perfectly it aligned with the teachings of Alice Bailey and the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali. Their writings outline the steps of withdrawing consciousness inward, and my spiritual practice had been quietly preparing me all along. I had followed the process without even realizing it:
First, withdrawing the busy, instinctual consciousness of the body inward, creating a still, centered state.
Then, lifting my awareness from the physical self into the mental plane, where ideas and higher truths begin to take shape.
Finally, accessing the soul’s consciousness—a moment where the lower mind fades, and the spiritual self perceives truth and reality directly.
In that luminous room, standing before Rudolf Steiner, I had touched the edges of samadhi—a state of pure spiritual contemplation described in the Yoga Sutras. His parting words, “I wasn’t ready for you yet,” reminded me that this journey is one of preparation and patience. Even as I reached for the stars, I knew I had to keep my feet firmly grounded, allowing the insights gained in higher realms to flow back into my daily life.
My journey began with a simple 30-minute-a-day practice and a willingness to explore. If you feel called to deepen your connection with the spiritual, start small. Choose a text or practice that resonates with you, carve out time each day, and allow yourself to be present. Trust that the journey will unfold exactly as it should.
Jennifer Lasell is a seasoned Psychic Medium and Meditation Practitioner with over 30 years of experience. As a dedicated student of Alice Bailey's teachings through the Lucis Trust Publishing Company (www.lucistrust.com), she integrates profound spiritual wisdom into her practice. Jennifer sees clients in her one-on-one practice—book online at www.jenniferlasell.com. She is also a Co-Teacher of the One-Year Psychic Development Program at Age of Aquarius in Paradise, California (www.ageofaquariuschico.com), where she guides others on their journey of spiritual awakening and self-discovery.
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